It's the leaning I miss most of all the gentle pressure of your head against my shoulder. the way that your laughter would radiate from the center of your chest into mine the way that as we walked our shoulders would bump into each other as our hands entwined and we'd just be close I want that again but the many miles stay keeping us apart and so we both wait and make due with a phone a feeble replacement for touch and we don't blame each other we're both happy we just always spare a thought for our dear absent friend.