Satine’s Lament

he’s living in daydreams, he’s chasing a green light 
he’s known me eight days, now he wants all my nights  
his pockets are empty, but i taste gold in his kiss 
the fall will be deadly, but how can one resist? 

he calls me a forest fire 
he makes me his muse 
i’m the sun in his noon sky 
but i’ll paint his world blue  

i lay myself down, i put on the red light 
i let them come close, but only till midnight 
i know that he’s jealous, but i’m fighting to free us 
his love keeps me warm, but affection can’t feed us 

his friends whisper warnings: 
“don’t give love to a whore.” 
i’m on my knees bleeding, 
but they say he deserves more 

so i put down the bottle and dress like a good wife 
i swear i’ll be honest when he saves me from this life 
he paints me in his image, shapes me with his hands
until he sculpts the heroine who fits into his plans 
i draw a fresh smile to convince him i’m all right 
what good is a damsel who runs from her white knight? 

swinging from heaven,
coughing red wine 
i feel myself slip 
i fall one last time 

he rushes to hold me in my sweet final breaths 
and says he’ll write our story years after my death 
he’ll make me a martyr, he’ll worship the grave 
of the fallen woman he valiantly saved 
the beautiful sinner his mercy washed clean 
the scandalous showgirl his pity redeemed 
we earn forgiveness only after we’ve been crucified 
they kick us while we live, but in death we’re canonized 
he'll tell pretty tales of the tragic young bride 
who only existed in a foolish boy’s mind 

paris, do not cry for me -  
my soul departs for heaven clean 
paris, know my name before he did -  
the sparkling diamond 
Satine